So We Are Praying....



This whole trailer thing is not happening really easily. We need 2700 dollars down payment just for the loan of the 13,000 dollar trailer. Its all so weird to me. Borrowing money, weither it be from a bank, credit union, or person. Feels kinda the same. Jordan is so set on it that he is convincing me that it will all work out smoothley. But me, im the one who sits there and scans the press democrat every day to see if any apt. for rents came up. You know, things might not work out the way that we plan, thats all.

You always have to have a back up plan right? Wrong for some people right for me. I just back up and back up and keep on backing up until my direction is totally changed and guess what? I just took a ton of steps backward! Sometimes planning ahead is only putting you in doubt of Gods plan for you and leaving you further behind than when you started.

Im just worried. I want it all to work out good. Ultimatley i know that it will, we won't be out on the streets or anything or go hungry. I just try so hard to make them work out down to the hour, the way that i want, and God comes along and messes it all up! cha!

So i guess i have to give it over to him. again. Last night at dinner we told asher to pray for God to Give us 2700 dollars so that we can get the trailer. Asher says "Dear Lord please give us one hundred dollars so that we can buy a trailer, amen" Jordan says "yes God, and multiply that by twenty seven" and then i make asher say the prayer over again with the correct amount and then we continue eating as if we werent just really weird.

Oh yeah, and thanks God that you are always in control, what would my life be like if i actually ran it?